My Private Sp@ce

mood: pissed off

music: #%^@@%$$^!$%%&&*

                             Had a major revelation last nite.just when i was abt to retire for the nite,bingo!!!!I get a flash of  revelation!!!this disturbs me so much tht i lie tossin and turnin for the majority of the nite,wich explains my grumbling mood 2day mornin......& which is also very evident to my colleague...who points it out to me!!

                         The one thing tht I should have realised long back was striking me now!!!I have been pretty disillusioned wid ppl.

                    ..but now,EnouGh!!For one,My life would be much more resolute....No use cringing for frenz who cant care less abt the happenings in my life...who dunt care if I am happy/sad,comfort me in my sad times or partake in my rejoicing.I dunno why I alwez wanted 2 b surrounded by such ppl,thinkin tht since we shared a past,we could still share the present/future.

                  Frenz who,despite my efforts on catchin up on their lives,seem detached from mine.Who dont wanna meet me,jus keep hidin under the pretext of 'I am bsy /hav other commitments'.I realise tht ppl can be busy..but does tht hold up ppl so much tht they cant mail/call/sms?I have realised tht no matter how much I try to be in touch wid them,they are politely snubbing me :-(

             People who I care for,despite knowin this fact,simply dont deserve my feelings...enough of hurtin my OWN self...

            The best way is to have a give-take relation....U wanna be frenz with me...I'm open 2 tht..but now I jus wudnt go outta the way 2 befriend others..or try 2 catch on wat u r up2..I wudnt let Emotions rule me...No use remembering bdays/anniversaries..no mailin/callin!!Though I'd still cherish the good times v have spent 2gethr.

             I dunno if Wat I am thinkin is true or not...its jus tht am in a damn frustrated mood today(wich is the consequence of last nite)..tht expalins why my post is so grumpy.